No don't worry I am not going to analyse whatever Berlioz was on when he wrote the Symphony or discuss the orchestration of the Villa Lobos, just a couple of final (maybe) observations from that night.
The first thought is around how comfortable I felt, bit because I was wearing an old pair of slippers, because I wasn't, no it was just tat I was very comfortable in tat environment, presenting Paula to the world. The concert platform is an environment I now inhabit pretty naturally however to be that comfortable doing it in a dress was a bit of a surprise. The first concert I played with LGSO I was probably more concerned about how I looked tan about how I sounded. This time I did of course take care how I looked, but it was more about enhancing the performance, looking good, feeling good and playing well. The initial excitement of going out to play wearing an LBD as passed, leaving a greater satisfaction, a comfort with who and what I am. As I have at least two more black dresses that need to be shown off I a already looking forward to the next one.
I don't know when I will next have the chance of an outing, the Orchestra like many others takes a break over the summer, and I will not be able to get to the next support group meeting. The weather looks set to be fine for a while so I will be making the most of that to get lots of work done. All in all for the next few weeks Paula will have to take a back seat, and in the mean time I am calling a moratorium on any spending, clothes, make up, jewellery, whatever, any spare cash is getting put aside, with any luck we may even get a holiday this year after all.