I feel sure that we are on the edge of a new stage in our relationship, I don't know where we are going or how we are going to get there, but I do know things are changing. Relationships with my wife have been a lot better over the last couple of days, positively friendly. Now usually my wife says what she means but often she will also store things (especially resentments) up, until they burst out.
So back to the question do I go out to dinner tonight or stay home? Originally y daughter was going to watch a film with a friend, the friend has dropped out so my wife immediately offered to go with her, I was not asked, and felt I would not be wanted. I do not want to fail a test I don't know I'm taking, so I felt the only thing to do was to come right out with it and ask, and she sad yes, go; so I will. I just have to trust that we are both joining in this new found spirit of openness and honesty.
The weather has turned very cold the last couple of days so I have been considering whether I am better dressing for the weather, with boots leggings and a sweater dress / tunic. This would be sensible, but I strongly expect this to be my last outing for some time, so I want to wear some sheer hosiery and frivolous shoes. I may be too glam for the evening, I may stand out even, but tonight I feel like throwing caution to the wind. So I come back the question I asked a while back (but feels like ages) shall it be a little black dress, or the black and silver cocktail dress. I am on my own now so I will try a couple of alternative outfits and see which I prefer for tonight. Whatever I choose and whatever happens I will try to report back before Tuesday, when we go for our first session of counselling, I think that may well be a post all of it's own.