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Nearly always when I first started to go out, I would create an opportunity, this would be something outside of my usual life, a special shopping trip, a visit to a coffee shop, anything. But it was always on my own and it was never productive. Sure it was fun, a release, a chance to express myself, but somehow not fully satisfying and not really part of the real world not least because I was also always on my own. That meant the only people I ever spoke with were sales assistants, and although invariably friendly this is hardly the basis for serious social interchange!
Nonetheless all this pushing of my comfort zone, I was still very much in the closet, I was making the closet bigger all the time but I was still inside. It is only more recently since I have stared to play with other orchestras, and to come out to more of my friends that I am beginning to get real world experience. So far nearly all of that experience has been positive, I am impressed with how accepting the majority of people are, if they care few show it, and most of those who do are positive.
Pelly Orchestra the one "Civilian" group I have played with so far no one cared how I looked as long as I didn't frighten the children and could play my instrument. Having said that I did already know some of the players and the conductor. When I play with the Euphonia Orchestra soon I will know no one there, and I haven't warned them of my status, it will be interesting to see what sort of reception I get, it will also be interesting to see what standard they are. I am currently resisting committing to more than one concert ~ just in case we don't suit each other.
Note; ~ I have just heard I did not get the post I auditioned for the other day, I was right they selected my friend Katrina, and I think they made the right choice, and they will suit each other very well. I am quite looking forward to playing with the band again "under her baton".