I have often been known to mention how blessed I am to be able to still have new experiences, even as I approach my sixth decade ever closer. I am still finding new music to play, new friends to enjoy it with, new plants and gardens to enjoy, and indeed new aspects of simply being me!
Most of the time these new experiences are interesting, maybe even exciting! but every now and then I have a new experience that isn't so good. This morning I had one of those. My musical career, such as it is, has been built as much on reliability as it is on ability so despite a very tiring week and stupidly busy day yesterday, when I got up this morning the first thing I did was go to my computer to check my e-mails for the details of this afternoons band stand job. It was only then that it registered that it wasn't an afternoon job at all, but a morning performance. Worse than that, having over slept from being so tired I was not going to make it in time, never mind I would be late for the start, I would not get there in time for the second half!
This has never happened to me before and I am very disappointed with myself, and very sorry for the band I had promised to play with. I know the feeling of I have not only let then down I have let myself down. This is one experience I do not want to repeat.
I have to take a message from this and slow down a bit. I have been trying to work as much as I can to try and get myself on an even financial keel, I have also been doing a lot of playing with a lot of different bands, indeed it has been a long busy summer, and now I am paying the toll. If I am so tired that I am making this type of mistake I need to recuperate a bit. So today I will be mostly doing very little apart from watching sport on the TV and pottering around the flat a bit.
I have my holiday to look forward to, but if I am going to last out until I go I still need to take some time just to rest. After all even God rested! and then created the Sabbath for Man, I have to take this on board and make sure that I have a Sabbath each week, even if it is not on the Sunday.
Most of the time these new experiences are interesting, maybe even exciting! but every now and then I have a new experience that isn't so good. This morning I had one of those. My musical career, such as it is, has been built as much on reliability as it is on ability so despite a very tiring week and stupidly busy day yesterday, when I got up this morning the first thing I did was go to my computer to check my e-mails for the details of this afternoons band stand job. It was only then that it registered that it wasn't an afternoon job at all, but a morning performance. Worse than that, having over slept from being so tired I was not going to make it in time, never mind I would be late for the start, I would not get there in time for the second half!
This has never happened to me before and I am very disappointed with myself, and very sorry for the band I had promised to play with. I know the feeling of I have not only let then down I have let myself down. This is one experience I do not want to repeat.
I have to take a message from this and slow down a bit. I have been trying to work as much as I can to try and get myself on an even financial keel, I have also been doing a lot of playing with a lot of different bands, indeed it has been a long busy summer, and now I am paying the toll. If I am so tired that I am making this type of mistake I need to recuperate a bit. So today I will be mostly doing very little apart from watching sport on the TV and pottering around the flat a bit.
I have my holiday to look forward to, but if I am going to last out until I go I still need to take some time just to rest. After all even God rested! and then created the Sabbath for Man, I have to take this on board and make sure that I have a Sabbath each week, even if it is not on the Sunday.
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